aspirations

do you know what i want to do when i grow up? neither do i.
do you know what God wants me to do when i grow up? neither do i.
after devos this morning, i sat and prayed, wondering and hoping. God answers prayers, so i'm hoping to receive some sort of job invitation... anytime now. but seriously, i have no idea. well, i have inkling suspicions, but those could be nothing but my personal whims... i'm not sure. that's the problem with liking and being interested in lots of things. so i don't know, i've decided to make a To Do list. i've done this before, but how about another list? can never have enough "random".

before i die, i'd like to:

• get a doctorate in something. that means university, start off with the chinese basics.
• teach and school my son (or daughter, any daughter of mine will love gaming ) in his first video game. that means getting a stable job, then getting married, then having kids. yes, kids with an "s". more basics.
  
• writing (either professionally or just for my wife and kids, either way i'd be content). that means... buying pencils and pads... pads of PAPER. geez.
• give the "sex" talk to my son(s), and/or the "no boys because they are evil" talk to my daughter(s). i plan on tackling these parental obstacles with humor. hehe, i can imagine it now... i'll choose to do it when their friends are over for maximum embarassment, and make jokes at body parts... like Iain's dad... haha, oh man.
  
• go on some sort of romantic adventure. "we'll run away from this world forever, just you and i." go cliché. "cliché" is cliché.
• learn to curl. either hair or rocks. or both.
• retire and spend my days painting or sketching or reading or... yeah, gaming. wouldn't that be cool? nothing but chill.
  
• be in a band, a Christian amateurish band. time to go grab raf and ben, "apache" and "reflections of my life" time... oh and featuring adwin.
• learn a song on the dijeridoo. i'll play for my wife and make her... cry. one way or another
• become one of those old men in the park, doing tai chi, only i'll be brushing up on my... nin-jutsu. c'mon, everyone wants to be a ninja, don't deny it.
• go to a beach and erect a home made sign saying "Nude Beach", then run away. imagine the confusion and chaos. just imagine.
  
• become the world champ in... othello. or at least, beat all my friends and family in it. we all know that othello's where it's at.
  
• move somewhere tropical and learn to surf, and/or windsurf. and hopefully, get bitten by a tiger shark. imagine the scar! chicks dig scars... and surfers. see? it's simple really.
  
• write scripts for movies and/or plays. that would be cool, to have a story of mine being published/presented to the public.

after making this list, something has become more clear to me. i really don't know what i want to do. obviosuly, it's all up to Him, and whatever it is, i'm pretty content with submitting to Him. and i'm sure God's got something, like He said, but it's just the not really knowing that kinda erks me. then again, little kids shouldn't bother the plans of adults, like my mom says. maybe she's not so crazy after all. alright, time to wait.